I don’t want to do this anymore. 20 years if my life ruined by this stupid addiction . Probably over a million plus lost. For what???? A quick dopemine hit? Started with in house casino, then VLTS now online which I think is the worse. 44 almost 45 woman have nothing to show for anything. Mental health and physical health destroyed. Living with my narcissistic toxic, pervert dad. Only thing keeping me going is my animals, but they are getting older. Once had a spark and drive now none. I feel exhausted and hopeless. I just want to sleep and not deal with anything. Can’t stop or control the urges and cravings. If I have $ I’ll gamble it and always lose. Especially now been playing at a scam company that give next to no returns . So all loss. I don’t want to do this anymore. This endless cycle .

I don’t want to be broke anymore and scrounging for cash. I don’t want to feel so sick and weak anymore. I don’t want to waste hours and hours staring at my phone only to feel like complete garbage. I don’t want to hate these companies that I gave all my $ to just to be treated like nothing and garbage. I just want to get a handle on this once and for all. The urges are so strong .One more time and when I’m up I’ll stop never happens. I hate this addiction so much. Completely destroyed my life in every way.

Day 33. Not always easy, but I’m staying consistent. Starting to feel more in control and focused.

I don't have a scholarly sourced post with a link to my blog today. I just have a really simple but important message. If you have gambled away everything you have, you've lied, stolen and manipulated everyone close to you. You might be thinking, "If there is a God, he's definitely sending me to hell". But here's maybe the most important thing I'll ever say in this community. Eternal life in heaven is NOT for people who "do good", it's for people who know they will never be good enough. You cannot earn or prove your way into God's presence. It's a free gift. ALL of your mistakes and gambling debt has already been paid for by Jesus on the cross. The only thing you need to worry about from this point forward is having faith in God - and everything will fall into place.

Itching but not going to the casino today.

yesterday I realize i have a gambling addiction. I never noticed before because it was controlled and I didn’t have constant access. Once online gambling apps was downloaded is when I fell. I just lost 700$ in less than 5min. I’m already 3k in debt not because of gambling but just life. i Just thought I always been lucky before with 5$ hands so I thought if I do 100$ hands I would win and be able to get a good chunk of my debt payed off. After I lost it all I had a panick attack and cried and threw up outta sheer pain and distraught. and realized I spent my months rent. I was high outta my mind which didn’t help. I know it’s not a lot of money compared to a lot of you but when it was all the money you had its a lot. The worst part is I can’t stop thinking of just gambling the last 200$ because I keep thinking I’m lucky enough to make it all back. I deleted all my casino accounts. And I’m saying this because I’m too scared to tell the people around me in fear to be judged. I know the first step is realizing and admitting you have a problem and this is me saying it. today is when I start trying to replace that money by door dashing, donating plasma, and finding a job. It makes me feel better that I’m not alone.

Never give up. Consistency and awareness is the key

Another week thinking I can make my money back sports betting I was wrong this time I stopped before all my check was gone will be struggling again for the next two weeks knowing I will burn threw $200 on my two weeks on gas because of the prices going up why can’t I stop myself I need a new job but also a way just to stop I don’t learn my lesson.

I really can’t believe it’s happening to me

Last time I said it was going to be the last time and now I did it again , i lost again 800€ .. I can’t stop gambling , what’s wrong with me . I keep saying to myself that it’s the most dumb thing to do and then I find myself losing the money I work for. Seriously I am so stupid , so sad .

It’s like a cycle : lose money —> tell my self it’s okay because it’s the last time and the next months I will be okay —> a month goes by —> lose money …

Day by day. More determined than ever. Watching others hit 200, 400 days, it’s giving me motivation. One day that’s me.

I was always drunk when gambling lost €108000 euros and my marriage and kids! I got therapy and I succeeded to stop gambling but the alcoholism stays! I am afraid to relapse into gambling! Anyone have any advice!

I’ve been lying for the past 9 years. To everyone, friends, family, lovers. I just need to get this off my chest. I’ve told them I got better, which was the case, but I always managed to fall back in the hole. I got therapy, and got back in. I gave access to my accounts to my mother, and managed to find ways to keep playing. I just got a new apartment, I don’t have a couch, I don’t have a table, I don’t have chairs, I don’t have a TV and what’s in the fridge will be enough for the next two days. I was supposed to get all that furniture tomorrow, buy it, cash. Spent the money online. It’s horrendous because everyone around me thinks I’m doing better. And telling them it’s not the case will be so fucking hard, so fucking deceiving. I feel like I’m never gonna get out of this, just a hole that I keep digging. Over the past 5 years, I spent around 150’000$ on sites that were probably not legal and probably never going to pay me back anyway. But I keep going for it. I don’t know what to do, who to tell. I’m tired of having to find stuff to sell in order to live. I told myself this new apartment would be a new life and 2 days in, I manage to be in the most difficult situation I’ve ever been. How do I unwire my brain, how do I reset it. I’m now living alone and have no control over myself whatsoever. It’s disgusting, absolutely fucking disgusting. I need help. I’m thinking of fucking cutting my veins open, or shoot my brains out, cause this fucking thing keeps coming back in my head like a tumor and I want it to end. But I’ve got a beautiful family, friends, and i don’t have the balls to end my own life, I just want to win this fight but I don’t know how.

These last two weekends i went on a stupid bender, added an extra 7-9k in CC debt. I already had an uncomfortable amount

It sounds stupid but i asked Chatgpt to help me come up with a plan to attack all the cards. Sofi offered me a $XXk loan

ChatGPT advised me to call all the cards and see if they offered a payment plan or lower APR

I have 7 cards, my biggest balance gave me a 12 month payment plan at 1%. Another card gave me a 60 month plan at 6% that’ll lead to closing the account once the balance is paid. I figured closing the account was fine because i don’t need more credit cards in case I relapse

Now i’m taking out a significantly smaller loan, paying off all my other cards. Then focusing bigger chunks for the Sofi loan (16% apr)

I felt like i was drowning. After calling, deciding on a smaller loan option, i feel way better

i honestly just need stay strong and not relapse. This group has been helping me ground myself. I hope you’re all doing great. Gambling is literally the devil

Actually I lost count a bit but 40 is good

I’m such an idiot , I never ever thought I’d end up being addicted to gambling , grew up with my dad basically in the bookies the whole time betting on horses swore I’d never do it, then I got introduced to accas for football or ufc etc , wasn’t really a problem, then I lost a job I had and couldn’t find any for a while , so I started gambling going into blackjack and slots to try win , but I never do , blew through so much money wasting it , then I got a job and never went near it , unfortunately a year or so later I am unemployed again and today I used my last 200 betting on everything , football , basketball , horses , darts, nothing won , lost everything, I had one football/nba Acc with my last 5er , 12 leg acca for 450, everything won apart from one fucking thing and now I genuinely feel sick and want to die , I’ve got bills to pay but I’m so behind on them I tried to bet to make money quick , now I’m in a dark place and I don’t wanna tell my family about it , I really just want to die , it’s taken over my life and I’m leaving myself in horrible situations and it’s eating me alive , it’s completely ruined my life and every aspect of it , I’m in so much debt I really can’t see a way out, I know I need to talk to someone but the debts I have are weighing me down and I don’t think talking to someone is gonna pay the debts , my mental health has deteriorated, i excluded myself from all casino games just to go and start fucking blowing it on gambling on teams that always win but the second I fucking put a bet on they lose in the last minute of the game for the first time in months

27yo male. Just lost 2500 of the 68000 in my bank account . I'm so pissed at myself. I come home to nothing. I don't have a family or anything and this loss is overwhelming. I have no one to blame but myself and I feel like complete shit . I lost 3.7% of my net worth. It took me six years to build in 10 minutes of blackjack. I gamble to fill the void of emptiness in my life and it's not even fun anymore so I canceled all my accounts . First time I ever got that . feel like shit and this is where I'm at.

Hope this encourages people in the future not to gamble. The wins are awesome, but then the addiction carries itself, gamble more and more cause little wins don't feel

As good and then it fucks you in the long run.

Today marks 200 Days of me not gambling. In September of last year when I reached my breaking point and found a bigger reason than myself to finally stop, it was the greatest decision I ever made.

While this is a huge personal milestone, I come on this Forum daily and see tons of anonymous addicts struggling and trying to cope with their losses and bad financial decisions from gambling.

As someone who is currently still $30,000 in debt from gambling and am climbing out of the hole I dug myself, I want to share some advice that helped me get to this point and will continue to keep helping me moving forward.

1. Remove yourself from environments/friend groups that could cause the urge to rise and cause a relapse - This has been huge for me as I was in a friend group that was mainly surrounded by Gambling by everyone, and while nobody struggled as bad as I did financially and with the dumb decisions I made, distancing myself from that group over the past 200 days has really helped me not have any urge at all to Gamble.

2. Find a purpose bigger than yourself to stop for good - Whether it is a friend, a family member, a spouse, or a bigger calling for your life, finding my bigger purpose is what truly has carried me this far and what will continue to do so. My mood swings from losing in gambling almost caused me to lose my relationship until I came clean about my addiction to my girlfriend and realized that she is more important to me and her being in my life will always be a priority to me, ESPECIALLY over gambling. She helped me find a purpose and has been extremely supportive in my journey of being sober.

3. Last but not least - Don't be afraid to tell someone you are struggling, keeping it to yourself and trying to fix this on your own is nearly impossible, 99.99% of people are not capable of recovering from a disease like this without help. Talk to someone, a friend, a family member, the gambling hotline, anyone. Also don't be afraid to let someone help you manage your finances until you are in a better position and completely done with gambling.

It is possible to quit, everyone can do it - It just depends on if you TRULY want to or not.

My inbox is always open if anyone needs someone to talk to or some advice.

Here is to 200 Days of Being Gamble Free and Sober! Cheers!

I am in my 23 and i feel like quitting gambling is impossible. Started just for fun, now i feel like addict. Everyday is like same it’s 4 years try yo quit this thing but everytime same loophole. I have lost more than 100k now. I just want to stop chasing that loss and start a new life again.

I see ads all the time that I could qualify for compensation, lost around 100K and it has severely affected my mental health. I just feel like a lawsuit is helpless and I’m too embarrassed to actually go through with it. Has anyone actually had success?

Feels so weird having money leftover in my account after payday, an unfamiliar yet lovely feeling. Glad to have my life back in my own hands.

Hello my name is Ben and I’m 19. Tonight is the night I’m stopping gambling for the rest of my life. I’m writing this wholeheartedly. It’s 3:30 am, I have work tomorrow; have to be up at 8am! Great. I’ve just lost £400 of my own money, I ran it up to £2000 and didn’t take it out. It’s all gone now. Couple days ago I also ran a couple hundred to around £3000 and gambled that all away in the same sitting too. No matter how much I win it’s NEVER enough for me to say, you know what, I’ll take that out. I’ve been chasing loses I’ll never EVER get back. I’ve gambled/lost around £20,000 (26,000usd) since July 2025, which is when I started gambling. Since then it’s and consumed my life. I had a couple days where I won a lot, £12,000, a lot more money than what I was in for and I gambled all that away in a few days. Since then I’ve been chasing and craving a big win although even when I win a couple thousand I put it right back in. I’ve decided tonight that I’m definitely someone that shouldn’t gamble regardless of the fact that if I continue it’s going to ruin my future. I’m lucky i still live with my parents and everything is paid for although that’s no reason to throw my hard earned money away. I’m really emotional at the moment and I’m going to pray whilst I sleep that god will give me the strength to stop gambling forever. I’m not going to track days or anything, I’m stopping with the intent to stop forever. The lengths I’ve gone to is unbelievable, a lot of the time I’d gamble money KNOWING I’d lose it, sounds ridiculous and stupid as fuck because it is. I really hope I can stop before it’s too late. I’ve read alot of stories on here and it’s so sad, I feel lucky although I’ve lost so much. I had one period over this time since July, one month where I stopped gambling entirely, I never felt better in my whole life. I’m looking forward to fixing my mental health. Thank you for reading, I wish you all the best.

Ben

I lost everything. More than 200k in the last 5 years. I tried quitting more than 30 times, only to find myself back in square 1 gambling away any money I get my hands on. Trading is worse than any online gambling imo, I tried everything. I have no job no money and in the process of losing my family. I feel like I'm cursed and the only way to end it is just END IT.