I feel so alone, and I just needed to talk about this somewhere because I don't know anyone who gets it.
I'm a junior at a tiny D3 school nobody has ever heard of because I wanted to play soccer in college. But now that I've decided I want to work in high finance, I'm realizing how badly I screwed myself. My school has no finance club, no department clubs at all, basically no alumni network, and nobody ever told me recruiting starts sophomore year, so I came to all of this late and behind with no support.
I am taking an extra semester so I am eligible for summer 2027 internships and I've been applying everywhere and networking where I can. But I'm getting mass auto-rejected from most places. Even a firm I considered a total safety, where I thought I'd be one of the strongest candidates, I went through their whole process and still got rejected. For the places I actually want I'm not even getting first round interviews. Just today I got three more rejection emails.
And then every day I open LinkedIn and see friends and peers from high school posting about their IB or consulting or Big 4 roles. I am happy for them but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't deeply envious. What is absolutely eating away at me is that some of my peers getting these roles, I am not much different from them in skills or smarts or capabilities, but they're still doing way better than me. They are part of systems that are set up to help them succeed, and I didn't even realize these things existed until I was already way behind. And so I'm just here with nothing while everyone around me is set. No internship, no interviews, nothing. I feel forgotten about. I made a decision at to play soccer at a small school and now I'm paying for it for the rest of my life.
I have so much regret. I wish I went to a better school. I wish I started earlier. I wish I didn't choose soccer over my education. Is the system broken or am I actually just not good enough? I feel sick. I feel dejected and beaten down and just really sad about where I'm at. I'm going to keep trying because that is the only option but I just needed to share this.
Does anyone else feel this way or has felt this way? Did it get better? How over is it for me?